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Weblogs have exploded on the internet scene in recent years. They are among the technologies indicating changes in the way information is created, managed, and exchanged on campuses and offer powerful opportunities for online collaboration for both language professionals and learners. The interactive nature of this technology offers an enticement to spend more time working with the language and hence lengthens students contact time with the second language. While working on a weblog would not necessarily improve students' speaking abilities, could their accuracy with the language be improved over time? Armstrong, K. the intermediate subjects' reliance on the overgeneralization stategy was found to be significantly higher than that of the elementary subjects. These findings appear to be consistent with a theory which considers second language acquisition to be an actively creative process dependent upon a student's ability to assimilate and subsume new information into already existing cognitive structures. The overgeneralization and transfer learning strategies appear to be two distinctly different linguistic manifestations of one psychological process: reliance on prior learning to facilitate new learning.<br><br><br>Spanish Health Information Resources for Nurses. Source: Pediatric Nursing . Jul/Aug2006, Vol. 32 Issue 4, p350-353. Abstract: According to the U.S. Census Bureau, Spanish-speakers currently constitute 1 in 10 U.S. To provide responsible and responsive care, many nurses will need to develop communication skills for working with Spanish speakers and be able to find quality, reliable health information in Spanish for their patients and patients' families. A number of efforts have been described in the literature. Copyright of Pediatric Nursing is the property of Jannetti Publications, Inc. and its content may not be copied or emailed to multiple sites or posted to a listserv without the copyright holder's express written permission.<br><br><br>However, users may print, download, or email articles for individual use. This abstract may be abridged. No warranty is given about the accuracy of the copy. Users should refer to the original published version of the material for the full abstract. For access to this entire article and additional high quality information, please check with your college/university library, local public library, or affiliated institution. Important User Information: Remote access to EBSCO's databases is permitted to patrons of subscribing institutions accessing from remote locations for personal, non-commercial use. However, remote access to EBSCO's databases from non-subscribing institutions is not allowed if the purpose of the use is for commercial gain through cost reduction or avoidance for a non-subscribing institution. 2019 EBSCO Industries, Inc. All rights reserved.<br><br><br>To help teachers use the product, the module includes worksheets with questions based on the science and safety content for each day. In addition, all of the educational lessons and games are available in a special section for teachers and can be accessed individually to be used as stand-alone lesson tools. We have also provided a table that correlates relevant categories of the middle school National Science Education Standards to content sections in the module, a printable Certificate of Completion, and links to other information and resources. In order to meet the needs of various students, versions of the module are available for students with hearing, mobility, and vision impairments and for Spanish language students. The latter version is currently available only in text form, rather than full multimedia. CD to distribute to their classes.<br><br><br>Abstract: The goal of this study is to describe the acquisition rate for gender acquisition in Spanish and to show whether individual variability and language contact may affect this rate. The participants were intermediate second language Spanish (first language English) learners in the study abroad and at‐home contexts over a 4‐month period. The participants received grammaticality judgment tests coded for morphological class of the modified noun as well as attributive and predicative adjectives. Data were also collected on social behavior and language contact in Spanish and English in order to explain data outcome. The findings suggest that no difference exists between the two learning contexts and that social behavior and language contact abroad have minimal influence on acquisition rate.<br><br><br>213). Instructors were randomly assigned to either an IC or an in‐class presentational (CP) condition for lessons and accompanying assignments on 2 uses of the Spanish pronoun se. An attitudinal inventory indicated that learners in the IC condition rated their assignments significantly higher in terms of perceived comfort, enjoyment, and subsequent confidence in the material. However, regression analysis showed that ratings were stratified based upon several predictor variables. For measures of L2 knowledge, learners in the IC condition performed significantly better than those in the CP when identifying grammatical uses of the target structure on a grammaticality judgment test. No significant differences were found between the groups’ performance on a rule description task or a chapter test. Implications for implementing IC models are discussed.<br><br><br>The objective of this paper is to introduce Hypertext as an alternative paradigm in developing a full-scale Intelligent Tutoring System to the traditional Expert Systems paradigm that has dominated for years Intelligent Tutoring Systems development. This paradigm has been employed in the development of PEDRO, an Intelligent Tutoring System for foreign language learning. PEDRO - The Spanish Tutor is an Intelligent Tutoring System designed to assist intermediate level students with their learning of Spanish grammar, by testing their knowledge of regular and irregular verbs. This paper describes PEDRO'S architecture, functionality and pedagogical strategy. PEDRO has been developed using HyperCard II.<br><br><br>Situated in the context of learning second language (L2) pronunciation, this article discusses from information‐processing and pedagogical perspectives the role of repetitive practice with L2 input and of explicit focus on its form‐related (phonological) properties. First, we report the results of an auditory word‐priming experiment with 60 L2 learners of Spanish varying in degree of L2 pronunciation accuracy; these results suggest that both repetition and focus on form have measurable benefits for processing L2 speech. Next, we discuss these findings in terms of information processing and its relationship to L2 pronunciation teaching. Finally, we describe a communicative framework for teaching L2 pronunciation that is compatible with the outlined information‐processing principles, that is, a framework that includes meaningful repetition and form‐focused activities within a communicative context.<br><br><br>Spanish‐English bilinguals were taught academic‐type information about History, Biology, Chemistry and Mythology in their two languages. Upon testing, it was found that memory was more accurate and retrieval was faster when the language of retrieval and the language of encoding matched than when they did not match. For accuracy, the pattern of results was influenced by bilinguals' language proficiency, so that only balanced bilinguals whose high proficiency levels were similar in both languages showed language‐dependent recall. For reaction time, bilinguals were faster to retrieve information when the languages of retrieval and encoding matched than when they mismatched, but only for material encoded in Spanish. The influence of encoding and retrieval languages on error patterns was also examined. Together, the study's findings suggest that bilingual learning may be subject to language dependency and that experience with a language may increase the strength of linguistic cues in producing language‐dependent memory. The results are consistent with previous findings of language‐dependent memory in autobiographical narratives, carry applied implications for bilingual education, and are discussed within the theoretical framework of the relationship between language and memory. Copyright © 2006 John Wiley person errors usually involved third person forms used in first person contexts. The pattern of limitations of the children with SLI suggests that, for languages such as Spanish, additional factors might have to be considered in the search for clinical markers for this disorder. Implications for evaluation and treatment of language disorders in Spanish-speaking children are also discussed.<br><br><br>PURPOSE To make decisions about implementing systematic depression screening, primary care physicians who serve Spanish-speaking populations need to know whether Spanish language depression-screening instruments are accurate. We aimed to review systematically the evidence regarding diagnostic accuracy of depression-screening instruments in Spanish-speaking primary care populations. METHODS We searched PubMed, PsycINFO, CINAHL, EMBASE, and Cochrane Libraries from inception to May 28, 2008, for studies examining the diagnostic accuracy of Spanish language depression case-finding instrument(s) administered to primary-care outpatients. Two authors independently assessed studies for inclusion and quality. RESULTS Twelve studies met inclusion criteria. CONCLUSIONS For depression screening in Spanish-speaking outpatients, fair evidence supports the diagnostic accuracy of the CES-D and PRIME-MD-9 in general primary care, the GDS-15-Spanish for geriatric patients, and the Spanish language versions of the EPDS or PDSS for postpartum patients. The ultrashort 2-item version of PRIME-MD may lack specificity in US Spanish-speakers.<br><br><br>Over 800 Latino high school and college students in Chicago, Illinois, reported via a written questionnaire that they used Spanish 75% or more of the time with their parents and other adults in the family. However, Spanish use with siblings, friends, cousins, and their own children averaged just 45% and was negatively correlated with length of residence in the U.S. This combined with overall low levels of daily Spanish use point to a language shift to English. INTRODUCTION. The Hispanic population in the U.S. 58% between 1990 and 2000, climbing from 22.4 million to 35.3 million (U.S. Since approximately 40% of this population was born in Latin America, the nation's increasing number of Latinos is due in part to new immigration from Spanish-speaking countries.<br><br><br>However, members of the second and third generations constitute the other 60% of U.S. Latinos, and most of these individuals have learned English: Overall 51% of U.S. Hispanics claimed to speak English 'very well.' Given that high proficiency in English has been found to correlate to less extensive use of Spanish (Bills, Hudson & Hernandez-Chavez 2000) and the general tendency for heritage languages in the U.S. Spanish language maintenance is useful. The majority of Spanish maintenance research in the United States has taken place in the Southwest, New York, and Miami. Floyd's (1985) review of eight Southwest language use surveys published between 1970 and 1984 found evidence of language shift from Spanish to English, particularly among younger speakers. New York and Miami have also seen a good deal of Spanish maintenance research.
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They certainly taught Spanish there a few years ago. I took some funky "History of Latinos" in the USA class - Spanish essays from Hispanics that moved to (continental) USA: Cesar Chavez, that sort of thing. I had to write a Spanish essays on each one. It was good. I had to drop out of a Spanish for Health Professionals class because it was above my level. But non-academic, community stuff is probably only English. However, I'm sure there are a ton of people who can tutor you or, if you're daring and don't mind the horrible wait coming back to the USA, Rio Bravo might have something. There's also a Christian radio station in Edinburg. I think they have some of missionary Spanish program but I'm not 100% sure. But for tutoring, look for some place that has a bulletin board and just say you'd like a Spanish tutor. You can probably find one at the laundromats or maybe that used bookstore in McAllen. I don't know if Starbucks has those but you could speak to the barista.<br><br><br>There are many good websites for learning a language. But it depends on what language you want to learn? Its all in kind of ways like this. I would like to learn say spanish. Here are the questions you want to ask yourself first. What do i speak? How will this effect me? Where will i use this. And who will i talk to in it. Im american. Im learning tons of difrent language. How you can learn accounting the easy way? Answer: There are several websites that offer free aniline training material. For example click on the related links below.<br><br><br>What does 'casino gratis' translate to in English? The phrase casino gratis is a Spanish phrase that translates to free casino. This is a term that would be used in many of the Spanish online gambling websites. What are some free ppv websites? Where can you go to translate Spanish words to English words for free? Its all free and it really does work. You write to them in Spanish and they write to you in English and you correct each other through onsite emails at your leisure. What are the best sites to learn French? What is the best software for learning spanish?<br><br><br>The best software to learn Spanish will be the one that suits the way you like to learn. As they all have different methods I would recommend you take advantage of the Free trials or lessons that most of the online providers provide. You can view some videos on Youtube. There are also some websites such as Free-Tarot-Reading, Learn Tarot, Angel Paths, and Goddess Flight. There aren't too many free guides, because most people expect you to pay to learn how to read them. What are some of the free resources that I can use to improve my Spoken English?<br><br><br>Where can one learn how to create their own logo? There are quite a few websites where one can design and create one's own logo for free. FreeLogoServices and LogoGarden are two such websites. They offer demos and samples for one to see how it works. What is the best way to learn Spanish on the web? The best way to learn a language on line is to chat one on one with a native speaker. There are a few websites out there that allow you to chat through Skype. Cafespeak allows you to chat with either a native speaker or a tutor in your native language. They also offer a free trial.<br><br><br>I would just keep using the free trial, and take advantage of that. Which telecom companies are there in France? Some telecom companies in France include 3Roam, DartyBox and Free Mobile. You can learn more about these telecom companies at their respective websites. What websites feature free clip art pictures? You can get free clip art pictures online from websites such as the OpenClipart Organization and Classroom Clipart websites. You can also get free clipart from the Free-Clipart Net website. Where can you find a free download of Spanish learning material? Why do free websites want you to pay to use them? Free websites don't want you to pay to use them.<br><br><br>What websites are free to advertise on? You can try FreeAdvertisingForum, ViewMemo. Inetgiant. These are 3 free advertising websites. What is the English translation of 'Pagina Web'? Pagina Web is a Spanish word which translates to web page in English. The translation of Spanish words can be found on line through the use of several free translation websites. Where can one learn how to speak English? English can be either learned locally, by going to a local teacher and buying classes, or online, for free. Online solutions include dozens of free websites, though their quality varies. Where can one learn to write some simple php scripts?<br><br><br>There are various websites which offer tutorials on simple PHP scripts. Both the Elated, and the Free Webmaster Help websites offer many tutorials to help with PHP scripting. How can you get free squishies? You can get them for free on trash websites. What websites offer a free translator from French to English? There are many websites that offer a free French to English translator. Some examples of these websites include Google, Free Translation, Reverso, and Gengo. What are some free fun websites to go on? If you mean some fun, free music websites, than freeplaymusic. If you mean gaming websites, then addictinggames.<br><br><br>View the websites below for the links. Where can you get a stock quote? You can go to a certified stock broker to give you a stock quote with information on where to go OR you can visit different websites to get a FREE stock quote and learn on the net. Where could you learn the programming language Cplusplus on the internet for free? Please see the related links for some sites. What is the difference between free websites paid websites and limited acces websites? Free Websites are websites which gives all their contents for reading/re-write freely. Paid Websites are websites which offers their services for a fixed paid amount.<br><br><br>Limited Access Websites are websites which give a small portion of their content for free and if you need still more information in depth, then you need to pay some amount prescribed by them. Are there any online therapy chat websites that are actually completely free? Apparently we are only worth what we can pay . What are some free gambling websites? There are a few free gambling websites around the internet. Some of these free sites include 'Free Casino Games', 'Sportsbook', 'Free Bets' and 'GoneGambling'. Which websites allow one to have free live chat? There are many websites that allow one to have a free live chat.<br><br><br>Some of the websites that allow one to have a free live chat would include Skype and other websites like Justin TV. What websites offer free casino slot games? There are dozens, if not hundreds, of websites that offer free casino slot games. Facebook has several free casino slot games, as do the websites ClickFun and Games. How does one learn about stock market day trading? Various websites can be used to learn about stock market day trading. One example would be TradingMarkets, which offers free online seminars. Other examples include About, Wikipedia, and Dummies. Tell you some free online virtual websites? Are there any free gay websites without signing up? If you google search "free gay websites" you will find them. Why did the Sonic the Hedgehog movie get delayed? What is it like to be left at the altar? What were the top selling toys of the 1970s? What do the Olympic rings mean? Where do veterinarians get blood for animal blood transfusions? What is the greatest year in movie history? Facts about star spangled banner? What is in the Impossible Whopper? Why is the internet obsessed with Keanu Reeves? Did Flamin' Hot Cheetos really send Lil Xan to the hospital?<br><br><br>Quick content: I’m the oldest of five children. My mom on the other hand was the second youngest of five. My dad (not really important to the story, but for context) is the youngest of four. Growing up I was seen as an independent soul that didn’t rely on people that much. My mom’s friends talk about how easy I was to watch as a baby because I learned to play by myself. Right before I turned 2, my first sister was born. Nothing major happened, but I wasn’t a attention hoarder so not all the attention on me didn’t affect me.<br><br><br>Every two years I would have a new sibling. So by the time I was 8, I was the oldest of five kids. I had learned at that point to be mommy’s helper. In school it was shown that I was a good student. So I was shaping to show that I was going to be the perfect daughter. When I was around 8, my best friend decided not to be my friend. This would start off a slow spiral, where I wouldn’t be a perfect daughter. I still excelled in my very small school. I was the top of the class and a teachers’ pet.<br><br><br>I was pressured to be perfect in school and at home. Because I was the oldest, I had to be the perfect example. This constant pressure was annoying but not overbearing. My social life on the other hand barely existed, because I had severe self confidence issues and was distant to my peers. The pressure only became a problem when I hit high school. I developed depression thanks to an abusive teacher and lack of socializing. My family, of course, didn’t notice the change. They did notice the sudden drop in grades. I went from a straight A school loving student to a B- average I hate school person.<br><br><br>My mom only noticed the grades. She thought I wasn’t trying hard enough. I definitely was doing my best in a class where I was constantly being verbally abused because I couldn’t remember what brown was in Spanish. Yes it was a Spanish 1 class. I had only spoken Spanish to say hello. So I had no experience actually forming sentences. I also have a problem forming words in English. My mom helped me find a Spanish tutor. I think in the back of her mind she thought I would get straight As if I could figure out Spanish. That didn’t happen but I was better.<br><br><br>I continued on in school dropping deeper into my depression. It got really bad in sophomore year. I began to self harm. I didn’t cut my wrists. I would scratch my skin until it was bright red, pinch, write horribly bad things I thought of myself, and sometimes I would scratch in the words with a Bobby pin. Still my parents didn’t notice or seem to care. I feel alone and that there was no point. I didn’t feel sad, I felt empty. I did have suicial thoughts. I ended up clawing my way out of my own dark hole. This was thanks in part to a savior crush. I eventually gained back my confidence and self esteem, but was still depressed. During this rocky time in my life, my parents were telling me that I needed to grow up more and that I wasn’t doing enough.<br><br><br>This only stressed me out more. The expectations of being the perfect daughter were driving me nuts. I knew I wasn’t perfect especially since I was suffering with my mental health. I also began to swear at school. I personally don’t like swearing, but when you claw yourself out a hole made by not fully knowing who you are anymore. I also began to experiment with makeup, music, and clothing to find out who I was. My mom didn’t approve me trying to find myself with makeup and clothing. Her reasoning was that I was looking too goth. I was wearing a dark gray shirt with jean shorts.<br><br><br>I undermined her a lot subtlety. I wore blue lipsticks school and listened to music with a lot of swearing. Both were meant to be me rebelling in a small, unnoticeable way. She found out about the lipstick, not the music. If she went my music, I would probably have my phone taken away. It’s gotten to the point where she has expectations on how my romantic relationships should go. She wants me to date a ‘gentleman’ who will pay for everything and ask me on dates. Let’s say that the guy I’m interested in is not that. I asked him on our first date. We paid for ourselves on that date. We went on a different date where I paid for the tickets and he paid for snacks. In my mom’s eyes, he isn’t shaping up to be the perfect boyfriend. So now I’m feed up with my mom. Advice would be great. Commenting on the situation would be great too. Anything funny would be appreciated.

Latest revision as of 16:23, 16 July 2019

They certainly taught Spanish there a few years ago. I took some funky "History of Latinos" in the USA class - Spanish essays from Hispanics that moved to (continental) USA: Cesar Chavez, that sort of thing. I had to write a Spanish essays on each one. It was good. I had to drop out of a Spanish for Health Professionals class because it was above my level. But non-academic, community stuff is probably only English. However, I'm sure there are a ton of people who can tutor you or, if you're daring and don't mind the horrible wait coming back to the USA, Rio Bravo might have something. There's also a Christian radio station in Edinburg. I think they have some of missionary Spanish program but I'm not 100% sure. But for tutoring, look for some place that has a bulletin board and just say you'd like a Spanish tutor. You can probably find one at the laundromats or maybe that used bookstore in McAllen. I don't know if Starbucks has those but you could speak to the barista.


There are many good websites for learning a language. But it depends on what language you want to learn? Its all in kind of ways like this. I would like to learn say spanish. Here are the questions you want to ask yourself first. What do i speak? How will this effect me? Where will i use this. And who will i talk to in it. Im american. Im learning tons of difrent language. How you can learn accounting the easy way? Answer: There are several websites that offer free aniline training material. For example click on the related links below.


What does 'casino gratis' translate to in English? The phrase casino gratis is a Spanish phrase that translates to free casino. This is a term that would be used in many of the Spanish online gambling websites. What are some free ppv websites? Where can you go to translate Spanish words to English words for free? Its all free and it really does work. You write to them in Spanish and they write to you in English and you correct each other through onsite emails at your leisure. What are the best sites to learn French? What is the best software for learning spanish?


The best software to learn Spanish will be the one that suits the way you like to learn. As they all have different methods I would recommend you take advantage of the Free trials or lessons that most of the online providers provide. You can view some videos on Youtube. There are also some websites such as Free-Tarot-Reading, Learn Tarot, Angel Paths, and Goddess Flight. There aren't too many free guides, because most people expect you to pay to learn how to read them. What are some of the free resources that I can use to improve my Spoken English?


Where can one learn how to create their own logo? There are quite a few websites where one can design and create one's own logo for free. FreeLogoServices and LogoGarden are two such websites. They offer demos and samples for one to see how it works. What is the best way to learn Spanish on the web? The best way to learn a language on line is to chat one on one with a native speaker. There are a few websites out there that allow you to chat through Skype. Cafespeak allows you to chat with either a native speaker or a tutor in your native language. They also offer a free trial.


I would just keep using the free trial, and take advantage of that. Which telecom companies are there in France? Some telecom companies in France include 3Roam, DartyBox and Free Mobile. You can learn more about these telecom companies at their respective websites. What websites feature free clip art pictures? You can get free clip art pictures online from websites such as the OpenClipart Organization and Classroom Clipart websites. You can also get free clipart from the Free-Clipart Net website. Where can you find a free download of Spanish learning material? Why do free websites want you to pay to use them? Free websites don't want you to pay to use them.


What websites are free to advertise on? You can try FreeAdvertisingForum, ViewMemo. Inetgiant. These are 3 free advertising websites. What is the English translation of 'Pagina Web'? Pagina Web is a Spanish word which translates to web page in English. The translation of Spanish words can be found on line through the use of several free translation websites. Where can one learn how to speak English? English can be either learned locally, by going to a local teacher and buying classes, or online, for free. Online solutions include dozens of free websites, though their quality varies. Where can one learn to write some simple php scripts?


There are various websites which offer tutorials on simple PHP scripts. Both the Elated, and the Free Webmaster Help websites offer many tutorials to help with PHP scripting. How can you get free squishies? You can get them for free on trash websites. What websites offer a free translator from French to English? There are many websites that offer a free French to English translator. Some examples of these websites include Google, Free Translation, Reverso, and Gengo. What are some free fun websites to go on? If you mean some fun, free music websites, than freeplaymusic. If you mean gaming websites, then addictinggames.


View the websites below for the links. Where can you get a stock quote? You can go to a certified stock broker to give you a stock quote with information on where to go OR you can visit different websites to get a FREE stock quote and learn on the net. Where could you learn the programming language Cplusplus on the internet for free? Please see the related links for some sites. What is the difference between free websites paid websites and limited acces websites? Free Websites are websites which gives all their contents for reading/re-write freely. Paid Websites are websites which offers their services for a fixed paid amount.


Limited Access Websites are websites which give a small portion of their content for free and if you need still more information in depth, then you need to pay some amount prescribed by them. Are there any online therapy chat websites that are actually completely free? Apparently we are only worth what we can pay . What are some free gambling websites? There are a few free gambling websites around the internet. Some of these free sites include 'Free Casino Games', 'Sportsbook', 'Free Bets' and 'GoneGambling'. Which websites allow one to have free live chat? There are many websites that allow one to have a free live chat.


Some of the websites that allow one to have a free live chat would include Skype and other websites like Justin TV. What websites offer free casino slot games? There are dozens, if not hundreds, of websites that offer free casino slot games. Facebook has several free casino slot games, as do the websites ClickFun and Games. How does one learn about stock market day trading? Various websites can be used to learn about stock market day trading. One example would be TradingMarkets, which offers free online seminars. Other examples include About, Wikipedia, and Dummies. Tell you some free online virtual websites? Are there any free gay websites without signing up? If you google search "free gay websites" you will find them. Why did the Sonic the Hedgehog movie get delayed? What is it like to be left at the altar? What were the top selling toys of the 1970s? What do the Olympic rings mean? Where do veterinarians get blood for animal blood transfusions? What is the greatest year in movie history? Facts about star spangled banner? What is in the Impossible Whopper? Why is the internet obsessed with Keanu Reeves? Did Flamin' Hot Cheetos really send Lil Xan to the hospital?


Quick content: I’m the oldest of five children. My mom on the other hand was the second youngest of five. My dad (not really important to the story, but for context) is the youngest of four. Growing up I was seen as an independent soul that didn’t rely on people that much. My mom’s friends talk about how easy I was to watch as a baby because I learned to play by myself. Right before I turned 2, my first sister was born. Nothing major happened, but I wasn’t a attention hoarder so not all the attention on me didn’t affect me.


Every two years I would have a new sibling. So by the time I was 8, I was the oldest of five kids. I had learned at that point to be mommy’s helper. In school it was shown that I was a good student. So I was shaping to show that I was going to be the perfect daughter. When I was around 8, my best friend decided not to be my friend. This would start off a slow spiral, where I wouldn’t be a perfect daughter. I still excelled in my very small school. I was the top of the class and a teachers’ pet.


I was pressured to be perfect in school and at home. Because I was the oldest, I had to be the perfect example. This constant pressure was annoying but not overbearing. My social life on the other hand barely existed, because I had severe self confidence issues and was distant to my peers. The pressure only became a problem when I hit high school. I developed depression thanks to an abusive teacher and lack of socializing. My family, of course, didn’t notice the change. They did notice the sudden drop in grades. I went from a straight A school loving student to a B- average I hate school person.


My mom only noticed the grades. She thought I wasn’t trying hard enough. I definitely was doing my best in a class where I was constantly being verbally abused because I couldn’t remember what brown was in Spanish. Yes it was a Spanish 1 class. I had only spoken Spanish to say hello. So I had no experience actually forming sentences. I also have a problem forming words in English. My mom helped me find a Spanish tutor. I think in the back of her mind she thought I would get straight As if I could figure out Spanish. That didn’t happen but I was better.


I continued on in school dropping deeper into my depression. It got really bad in sophomore year. I began to self harm. I didn’t cut my wrists. I would scratch my skin until it was bright red, pinch, write horribly bad things I thought of myself, and sometimes I would scratch in the words with a Bobby pin. Still my parents didn’t notice or seem to care. I feel alone and that there was no point. I didn’t feel sad, I felt empty. I did have suicial thoughts. I ended up clawing my way out of my own dark hole. This was thanks in part to a savior crush. I eventually gained back my confidence and self esteem, but was still depressed. During this rocky time in my life, my parents were telling me that I needed to grow up more and that I wasn’t doing enough.


This only stressed me out more. The expectations of being the perfect daughter were driving me nuts. I knew I wasn’t perfect especially since I was suffering with my mental health. I also began to swear at school. I personally don’t like swearing, but when you claw yourself out a hole made by not fully knowing who you are anymore. I also began to experiment with makeup, music, and clothing to find out who I was. My mom didn’t approve me trying to find myself with makeup and clothing. Her reasoning was that I was looking too goth. I was wearing a dark gray shirt with jean shorts.


I undermined her a lot subtlety. I wore blue lipsticks school and listened to music with a lot of swearing. Both were meant to be me rebelling in a small, unnoticeable way. She found out about the lipstick, not the music. If she went my music, I would probably have my phone taken away. It’s gotten to the point where she has expectations on how my romantic relationships should go. She wants me to date a ‘gentleman’ who will pay for everything and ask me on dates. Let’s say that the guy I’m interested in is not that. I asked him on our first date. We paid for ourselves on that date. We went on a different date where I paid for the tickets and he paid for snacks. In my mom’s eyes, he isn’t shaping up to be the perfect boyfriend. So now I’m feed up with my mom. Advice would be great. Commenting on the situation would be great too. Anything funny would be appreciated.

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